Facing Adversity

by K. Muktidevi Demafeliz

What does it really mean to face adversity and how can we build the strength within ourselves to face the adversities in our lives? When I think about that, I think about the Sanskrit word
“tapas” which means “accepting pain for purification.” We need to face and go through our
difficulties, to accept, purge and then grow from our pains, our experiences. Like all of us, I have been through many trials and tribulations. They have been overcome with time, healing and growth and they have all brought me here to write this blog, but the one adversity I’d like to
share with you today is my diagnosis and living with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). This October will
be my 26 th year of living with MS.
 
MS is why I sought yoga in the first place, and then, over time, I fell in love with the practice.
Now, 16 years later, I want to share my journey with you.
 
Before I began my yogic/spiritual path, I was doing everything backwards; I was eating poorly,
not exercising regularly and was attaching myself to everything and everyone! When I was
introduced to yoga practice, it was because I had to figure out a way to “keep my body
moving” after being half-paralyzed, temporarily blind, speech impaired and a full list of other
symptoms. I was what we call a “hot mess,” but I knew I had to get my act together or else, I told myself, I was NOT going to make it. I was involved with the National MS Society and the MS community and I needed to figure out a way to balance everything and to lead a healthier lifestyle. I took my first yoga class back in March 2008, when I was employed at the SFPD Airport Bureau and had decided to join the Wellness Program at the SFO Airport. WOW… how  that all changed my life, truly, for the better.
My first yoga teacher, who then became my mentor, Anthony “Tony” Garcia supported and
guided me through the teachings. I was four years into my practice when I started to have a
deeper understanding and connection with mySelf, with my body and breath. When I told Tony
“I want to become a yoga teacher, show me the way,” he shared literature with me and worked
with me, helping me to understand the science and philosophy behind yoga. He encouraged me to take yoga teacher training in the Integral Yoga® tradition and, when I stepped into the IYISF back in September 2014, that is what really changed my life forever.
 
During my very first yoga teacher training at the Institute, in the midst of the many hours of intense training, studying and many practice sessions, my mother was very ill with cancer. The challenge of caring for a sick parent while dealing with my own health condition was huge and my mind was in a constant blur. The uncertainty of my mother’s condition and my desire for her to live forever  and my terror of losing her just as I was finally pursuing my passion to becoming a yoga teacher was all so very difficult. I was sleeping less than four hours a night, or none at all, while I cared for my mother and studied.
During that time and over the years, as I stuck with it, my yoga practice saved me, helping me
tremendously with my healing, growth and survival. During the teacher training, I was able to
really “be in the present moment and detach myself” from the people and things that were
binding me from internal happiness. I allowed the asanas, breath work and stillness
(meditation) to help carry me through and, day by day, they helped ease the pain I was feeling
inside my heart.
 
One of the spiritual sayings that really put things in perspective for me was “Pratipaksha Bhavana.” It tells us that when we are disturbed by negative thoughts, opposite (positive) ones should be brought to mind. By practicing Pratipaksha Bhavana in daily life, we are able to stop negative thoughts from overpowering a situation, which can then change the environment, bringing about a “positive” one.
My mother ended up taking her last breath on October 17, 2015 and passed away while in my
arms (boy that was hard). Although that was one of the most soul-crushing moments in my life,
it was also a special and beautiful moment for me. The same person who had given me life was
transitioning over to finding ultimate peace, with no pain or suffering, and I was able to witness
all of that with her. In recent years, I have found myself facing most of my traumatic hardships
and coming out on the other side, even when I did not think I was going to make it. Now, I want
to continue to thrive and be true (Satya) to myself with the saying, “its okay, to not be okay” and
to not be afraid to ask for help or to give myself permission to cry when I feel the need to.
PURGING is vital for the healing process. And learning and growing from what caused us pain
and suffering in the first place, being able to detach or “let go” of that pain is liberating,
lifesaving.
 
In closing, please practice LOVING yourself unconditionally (I know this can be challenging)
and do not say or think that you are less than anyone else if you feel that “something is wrong
with you.” You are your own ultimate higher Self. Love yourself fully so that you can love and
help others heal from their own adversities, giving them the space and voice to be heard.
Liberate yourself from what may be binding you to any sufferings, and know that one can
release and purge out and purify any pain (going back to tapas) by confronting and accepting
those pains. The pain is temporary. Liberate yourself, empower yourself and allow yourself to
heal through the power of your yoga practice.
You can join Muktidevi along with Swami Ramananda and Arpita Roy for Satsang: Facing Adversity, Sat. March 2 @ 5:30 pm – 6:30 pm PST online & in-person. Or attend Muktidevi’s Mixed Level Online Hatha class, every other Thursday from 6:00 – 7:00 pm.
K. Muktidevi Demafeliz is a born and raised San Franciscan and has been a yoga practitioner for 16 years. Her yoga practice began with her mentor Tony Garcia who guided her in the study of yoga back in 2012 through the SFO Airport’s Wellness Program. He encouraged her to pursue yoga teacher training, which she did, in the Integral Yoga tradition. She is certified in Basic Hatha I, Intermediate Hatha II, Accessible Yoga (Gentle), and certified in Mindful Resilience Training through the Veterans Yoga Project to teach trauma-informed yoga. She wishes to pursue future trainings such as Meditation Teacher Training in addition to Yoga for First Responders as she is the Well-Being Champion for the San Francisco Police Department. YOGA IS HER PASSION, and she expresses her love and enthusiasm for the practice with those she comes into contact with, on and off the mat. Muktidevi mentors and supports teacher trainees as well as newly certified teachers to help them continue to develop and grow while on their yogic path. She also supports the BIPOC Sangha which was born at the Integral Yoga Institute San Francisco (IYISF) and continues to serve these communities to help create ripples for change to establish a space of healing and empowerment. With that, yoga has impacted and transformed her life in such a positive and healthy way that she truly believes it is the saving grace for all. For 26 years, Muktidevi has been living with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and continues to carry out the practices of yoga to help her maneuver through life’s challenges when facing adversity. She is a lifelong learner and strives to become the best version of herself to live her best life, regardless of what life may bring.
2024-02-21T14:33:02-08:00February 21st, 2024|

How to Stay Heart Centered Once You Find Yourself There

by Snehan Born

Swami Satchidananda said, “Bhakti Yoga is the easiest practice because we begin with Love. Chanting doesn’t require a quiet place or a particular kind of dress or a particular type of life.”

 This testimony is evidenced by the steadily increasing popularity of Kirtan chanting all over the world. People are discovering the benefits and pleasures of chanting the Holy names of God. The practice requires no particular faith nor belief to have a positive effect on us.

By singing or repeating these names, even if we don’t know the language we are chanting in, there comes a quieting of the mind and an opening in the heart. Those who regularly practice Kirtan and Japa experience, without fail, a shift from mind centered being to heart centered being. Then comes the question: How do we maintain the open heart and stay centered there  in our exchanges with other beings who may not, consciously or unconsciously, welcome nor support an open heart? If we are not securely grounded in our open heartedness then we will feel the need to guard our hearts from the critical responses of others.

I have been thoroughly enjoying chanting Kirtan and Japa practices for decades now and most definitely in the past 6 years of living at the IYI in San Francisco.  Joining an online sangha that meets every morning to study and repeat the Hanuman Chalisa has given me very clear experiences of reliably opening the heart only to feel that I shut it down upon the first encounter with negativity. But these experiences have shown me the more challenging work of staying open hearted in the presence of negativity.

It is certainly not easy, but just lately I’ve had some pretty clear experiences of quelling the tendency to react in defense and rather, just allowing the presence of perceived negativity without needing to “correct” it. I have watched the mind rushing back into its job of defending the ego and have interceded with the knee-jerk reactive mind, requesting  that I stay in the heart, because I know how good that open heart feels.

When I’ve been more successful with this, I have been surprised with the degree of calm presence that I find myself in. Within that space, I can choose to react, if at all, from loving kindness and choose thoughts, words and actions emanating from Love. Even if this doesn’t shift the negativity on the outside, inwardly I remain relatively peaceful compared to the alternative of defensiveness and needing to be understood. And that feels way better than any degree of defense or understanding can produce.

Join Snehan for monthly Full Moon Chanting – February 23 @ 8:00 pm – 8:30 pm PT online & in-person.  He also teaches weekly online and in-person:

Snehan Born, E-RYT 500, has over four decades of experience with yoga. He resides at the Integral Yoga Institute of San Francisco, where he teaches yoga classes and is a lead teacher trainer. Snehan is certified in all levels of Integral Yoga Hatha and has received additional certifications in Pranayama, Meditation, Raja Yoga and Stress Management from Integral Yoga. Chanting mantras and playing the harmonium are part of his regular practice and classes. Snehan has lived and traveled extensively within India and practiced with many teachers there. He has taught yoga all over the US as well as in India, Nepal, South America, Australia, New Zealand, Mexico, Japan and Europe.
2024-02-14T21:19:55-08:00February 14th, 2024|

Teaching of the Month: Living with an Open Heart

by Swami Ramananda

When we talk about the purpose of spiritual practice, we often say something about experiencing our True Nature. What exactly does that imply? When I reflect upon what that means to me, I think of experiencing an innate peace or contentment within myself, as well as a sense of oneness with the whole web of life. This integral sense of connection gives rise to a natural compassion toward all fellow beings, which enables me to derive joy from caring for and serving others.

Of course, the culture we live in obviously paints a different picture. We are conditioned in numerous ways to think of ourselves only as a body and mind, separate from each other. And if we’re unable to experience the spiritual consciousness that is our shared ground of being, we invariably find ourselves living in a trance of separation. This sense of disconnection suggests that something is lacking, leaving us with an underlying sense of incompleteness and insecurity.

Our culture prescribes the solution in the form of acquiring things, achieving goals, and arranging our lives well enough to create the conditions for material security and seeming happiness. Our minds are thus dominated with all the judging, planning, reasoning and evaluating necessary to create a so-called successful life, causing us to dwell so much in our heads that we inevitably lose touch with our hearts.

I think that in many ways the spiritual path is a return to dwelling within our hearts, where we can feel a natural connection to each other and to the source of wisdom and joy that is our True Nature. The sages of many spiritual traditions have asserted that learning to love each other fully is the essence of their teachings. The Dalai Lama once said, “Kindness is my religion.” Jesus Christ gave us the well-known teaching: “Love thy neighbor as thy self.”

In his book, A Path with Heart, Jack Kornfield beautifully articulates this understanding: “When we see the mind’s very nature is to think, to divide, to plan, we can release ourselves from its iron grip of separatism and come to rest in the body and heart… As one great Indian master, Sri Nisargatta, put it, ‘the mind creates the abyss, and the heart crosses it’.”

Of course, we must use our minds to function in the world, and it behooves us all to think clearly, plan ahead and use good judgement. Yes, absolutely.  However, our thinking can also function in harmony with a Higher Will when we stay open and connected to our hearts. When we allow ourselves to be guided by a Higher Will, we will have compassion, first of all for ourselves, enabling us to acknowledge our mistakes and recognize our unhealthy behaviors without judging ourselves harshly.

Living with an open heart also enables us to enjoy the connections we make with each other – deep friendship and intimate love are beautiful and powerful aspects of human life to be embraced and treasured.  What we must learn though is to love without requiring something in return, experiencing the joy of giving love freely. When a mother loves her baby, for example, she doesn’t expect anything — the experience of opening one’s heart fully to another being is itself fulfilling.  We can all learn over time, often from the pain of our unhealthy attachment to others, to love in this selfless way.

Just as we learn to open our hearts in relationships with those we love, we must also learn from our difficult relationships.  If we dislike someone that we find annoying or shun those who are struggling, we ultimately hurt ourselves by closing our hearts and failing to remember the spiritual presence and connection that resides within us all.  The teachings from many spiritual traditions clearly guide us to cultivate an inner response of compassion to those who are suffering.

In this context, a compassionate mindset does not dictate any specific behavior.  Compassion may take many forms — from lending a helping hand to simply offering a prayer, acting with kindness or listening with empathy.  This practice keeps our hearts open and at peace, remembering that we too struggle when we are overwhelmed or distraught.

Clearly, the best motivation for serving others comes from experiencing the feeling of compassion flowing through our hearts and the natural sense of joy that arises from giving freely. Ultimately, we are all learning, one act of kindness at a time, that pursuing our spiritual growth also means nurturing the impulse of an open heart to selflessly love and serve as instruments of the Divine Will.

You can join Ramananda this month, online or in-person for:

Swami Ramananda, C-IAYT, E-RYT 500, is the Executive Director of the Integral Yoga Institute in San Francisco and a greatly respected senior teacher in the Integral Yoga tradition, who has been practicing Yoga for over 45 years. Ramananda offers practical methods of integrating the timeless teachings and practices of Yoga into daily life, and transforming the painful aspects of human experience into steps toward realizing one’s full potential.

He leads all levels of Yoga teacher trainings and programs around the globe. Ramananda co-developed the Stress Management Teacher Training program and has trained many teachers to bring Yoga into corporate, hospital and medical settings. He a founding board member of Yoga Alliance and is a co-founder of The Spiritual Action Initiative which brings together individuals committed to working for social justice for all beings and for the care and healing of our natural world. His warmth, wisdom and sense of humor have endeared him to many.

2024-02-05T11:33:38-08:00February 5th, 2024|

Why Bipoc Only

by Mia Velez

Our BIPOC only mini-retreat, Revitalize the Spirit, is coming up on Saturday, February 10th, and we’re asking for community support. The Ripples for Change group is working diligently to bring diverse representation to Integral Yoga Institute SF (IYI).  After all, it’s through diversity that we get better, well rounded perspectives. Cultural diversity benefits everyone. It paves the way to better problem-solving, more empathy, compassion and deepened learning.  One way to create diversity at IYI is with programs that are exclusive to Black, Indigenous, and People of Color (BIPOC).

Why BIPOC exclusively?  There is an observed social pattern that yoga events and programs are often dismissed by BIPOC folx because they believe it’s not for them; and perhaps in the past, when they did attend, they felt out of place. Maybe they felt vulnerable being the only BIPOC person in the room. We want to change that!  We want to demonstrate that yes, there are BIPOC folx out there who are interested in yoga and they are welcome at IYISF.

This event is designed: to create camaraderie, to experience the healing frequency of the actual space of IYISF, and to show up and show out for the year of the Dragon 2024.  The day starts with an opening reception with snacks and herbal mocktails to mingle and socialize, then we will:

  • Explore our physicality with Hatha (all levels welcome – if you have a body, you can do Hatha).

  • Awaken the artist in all of us by creating vision boards.

  • Soothe the nervous system with sound healing and Reiki while in restorative postures.

  • We conclude the evening by breaking bread – sharing a home cooked, vegetarian meal.

Creating BIPOC spaces isn’t an attempt to exclude our White brothers and sisters. We simply want to ensure space for those who have been historically/systemically left out.  Please help us fill the physical space of IYI and bring BIPOC perspectives into the Yoga dialogue.

Creating a BIPOC community at IYI benefits us all.  When any one of us experiences the benefits of Yoga, it ripples out to our surroundings and benefits everyone – creating a ripple of change through sympathetic healing. Please help us spread the word.
Revitalize the Spirit: BIPOC mini-retreat is on Saturday, February 10 from 11:30 am – 7:30 pm PT.
You can also join Mia for Scripture Study: Yoga Sutras for Modern Times, 3-part series on Monday, February 5 from 6:00 – 7:00 pm PT.
Mia Velez, E-RYT 500, entered the Integral Yoga Sangha in 2016 through the kitchen by helping to cook Thursday community lunches and silent retreat meals. In 2018 she was certified as an Integral Yoga teacher to learn more of the IYI approach and be part of the lineage. Mia is a disciple of the Moy Yat Ving Tsun Kung Fu lineage and is highly influenced by her martial arts training. After completing her first 200-hour teacher training in 2008, she began to see undeniable parallels in Yoga and Kung Fu. When she began teaching Kung Fu in 2014, she incorporated Yoga insight and principles in her classes. Her goal in teaching is to connect with the students and to facilitate a safe space for exploration and self-inquiry. Yoga and Kung Fu are integrated into her daily life as a mother, a preschool teacher, and an advocate for gender, race, and class equality through multiple non-profit groups.
2024-01-31T12:45:26-08:00January 31st, 2024|
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